Reoccurring

These have been a few words that have been circulating through my brain for the last couple of weeks

Free
Reborn
Liberation
New
Grow
Independence
Happy
Bliss
Acceptance
Ready
Beautiful
Sexy
'Perfect'
Good

all of these words that don't describe me at the moment but all of these words I strive to want to be and I don't mean to be all gushy on this blog because I have been going through alot lately concerning myself and personal life....I put another hold on the new blog I'm suppose to be starting any day now because of how I've been feeling but I promise I will start it soon

"The Girl I Want To Be"

I want to be fearless

I want to be confident

I want to get tattoos and not give a fuck

I want to smile and be sexy

I want to look “sexy”

I want to feel “sexy”

I want my body to feel sexy

I want to strut around in heels 24/7

I want to wake up every morning feeling like I can conquer the world

I want my face and body language to show that I’m actually happy

I want my body to feel good

What’s stopping me from being the girl (woman) I want to be?? Nothing at all but I have to believe in myself because I’m all that I have it all starts with me first…and of course we can all say that I’ll start tomorrow but its hard and it takes time especially for me! I’m on the path now to trying to be a better me.

tick tick tick...time is tickingggg!

(I hate when I have an idea and I wont show anyone until its perfected...)

SO INSPIRED AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN!!!

...tick, tick, tick.... BOOM!!

TO DO LIST + UPDATES

Hey guys I just wanted to update everyone on what was going on in my little world (not much but I do feel the need to talk about it!) I've been working non-stop and feeling fatigue more than ever latley...it could be the reason of me not exercising and not really eating healthy/at all :( But I'm trying to change that all now adays Ok back to what I really wanted to talk about my "to do list"

Any and every time I feel the need to 'cleanse' my life or change things around I always rearrange my room/throw out or give away alot of my stuff like just recently I mentioned that I had chuck taylors (shoes) that I wanted to give away so tonight I gave some away to my co-worker I mean he didn't take all of them but he took 4 out of 13 pairs that I had! So I actually feel great and next I'm going to work on my magazine collection (and if you know me I have a million magazines just sitting in my room) I'll be stripping down and ripping out my favorite pages from all the mags from 2006-2009 like Elle, Elle UK,  Vogue, etc the 8"x11" magazines...because I just don't have the heart to rip apart my V magazine, Interview or any other bigger magazines so I'll just use a straight edge cut them out nice and neatly and place them in page protectors and save them for future inspiration references (sounds OCD and tedious but thats what I want to do!) So I'm pretty excited about that! Omg...wait does it sound like I'm a old lady but instead of collecting stamps or cat sweaters I'm collecting/saving magazine pictures?...please I hope it doesnt sound like that! hahahahaha but anways besides my other goals thats really on my to do list!

As for life plans I've did another 360.... instead of moving to New York in the next year I'm going back to college (for fashion design) out here in Texas but I have a few requirements before I go back to college and get into this thing again because when I was studying in college I wasn't really serious about it and I wasn't happy so now I know the things that I need before I actually start that up again...I need to have my personal life right...(if that makes any sense?). Its probably the best thing I've decided on doing in a long time....it feels 'safe'...not that taking risks shouldnt ever happen but I want to be smart and get my degree before I move out of state...

P.S. Remember when I made that post about me buying those AWESOMMEEEEEE A Wang shoes online?? well they came in! (see picture below) but I freaking couldnt get them on!!! They were my size but the way they were made it was difficult to put on! like they dont have a zipper so I guess my narrow foot couldnt get into them? but either way I was so pissed off that I had to return them that I accidently took it out on everyone :( I mean they're freaking ALEXANDER WANG SHOES!...ughh I don't even want to talk about it anymore...I'm buying a new pair to fill my void... (just kidding)

PLEASE GIVE

Over the course of me being sick and out of work for a week I watched a couple of movies and this is one of them that I did get around to watching...and let me tell you that I cried by the end of it was crazy because in some ways I'm just Catherine Keeners' character Kate (If you've seen it no I'm not exactly like that because hers was mostly guilt) but I feel like Karma is a true thing that if I do anything in life where I feel like I've done wrong that I have to make up for it...its just natural for me because I strongly believe in karma to the fullest.

I have the urge to do something drastic....
(style & appearance wise)

GOTTA GET MYSELF TOGETHER

It's all over like steps in the first snow

Something's been building up and it's gonna blow

My momma called me last night, she said what nothing else fits

Pick up the pieces and move on

I see the flashing lights, just can't make sense of the bits

It's like my mind is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Get my head back on

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

When this hurt is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

I got ... got to get ...

Can't tell what's right or wrong

I wish there's something could be done

Not that clever

When this hurt is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

Can't stand to see you upset

But you already know

The more close it gets

The less I wanna go

I saw my brother last night

He said I know you too well

You can't pretend that's nothing wrong

I see the fuse that ignites, like I'm outside of myself

It's like my mind is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Get my head back on

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

When this hurt is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

I got ... got to get ...

Can't tell what's right or wrong

I wish there's something could be done

Not that clever

When this hurt is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

My daddy put me aside

Like when I was a child

He said I trust you decide

On what you know is right

And for whatever it's worth,

I am on your side

There's no denying the mess

That I got us in

And I've been trying my best

Not to make a scene

Just can't make a sense of it all

It's like my mind is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Get my head back on

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

When this hurt is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

I got ... got to get ...

Can't tell what's going wrong

I wish there's something could be done

Not that clever

When this hurt is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

I got ... got to get ...

Can't tell what's going wrong

I wish there's something could be done

Not that clever

When this hurt is gone

I got ... got to get ...

Myself together

TADAH!

Guess what just arrived in the mail!!!


My new Digital camera!!! You know what that means! I finally get to start the new blog!

P.S (please forgive me if it looks like I never smile! Because I do! ALOT! ahahhaha)

UPDATE!

(photo:tumblr)
Guess who just bought a camera?! Me! I just muscled up the courage to actually shell out some money to buy a decent camera its a Nikon Coolpix S8100! I can't wait for it to get here because thennnnn... I can finally work on starting my personal blog!

I MIGHT BE CRAZY OR THIS MIGHT BE A OBSESSION

I've been obsessing over Hollywood celebrities the whole idea of living in California being a 'california girl' is taken over my brain! I'm obsessed! with celebrity style,jewelry,trends,hairstyles is sickening! lol... So today I was having thoughts of turning PLANEE JANE into a Celebrity/Style blog???

SHOCK!.... GASP!!

I know right how could I right? maybe I've lost my mind today but it was just a thought! I don't know how my readers would think about that...but it was just a thought! I just don't know what to do with this blog anymore??...I'm ready to start the new one! (Blah!)

But anyways you guys its just a thought not something I'm serious about because there is a million celebrity style blogs out there so I don't see why I would want to turn this one into one!

P.S Do you guys remember Ashlee Simpson? Look how cute/stylish she looks!

(photos from: justjared, photos by: Fame Pictures, Bauergriffinonline)

BAD HABITS & LYRICS

I always loved Ray Lamontagne but have you ever listened to the song and realized it had such beautiful lyrics like this song by Ray called 'All The Wild Horses' I actually listened to what he was singing and it was beautiful

All the wild horses

All the wild horses

Tethered with tears in their eyes

May no man's touch ever tame you

May no man's reigns ever chain you

And may no man's weight ever defrayed your soul

And as for the clouds

Just let them roll

Roll away

Roll away

As for the clouds

Just let them roll

Roll away

Roll away

SHE & HIM 'DON'T LOOK BACK' MUSIC VIDEO + UPDATE!

I just thought I'd give everyone a little update on what's been going on and what's been up (which is not much) with me lately! Well as of recent I've bought a dress form! and I can't wait for it to get here!! I already have a name for it! I shall name it Jane maybe with my new dress form I'll actually design actual things...since lately I've been on a designing stumper...

(photo:theselsby.com)
Well anyways I'm still working 24/7 making money I don't know what to do with so I decided to buy myself a late xmas present this month since I didn't get anything last year...and that's been it with me...I'm still at a crossroad with what I want to do in life but I know its something that deals with fashion and I don't know if it will be designing or...? but deep down I know that I want to be a designer and its what I'm destined for its just I don't feel it. I don't feel/or have the drive at this point and time in my life...unfortunately... but one day I hope I will

WHATS GOING ON

All I do is smoke cigarettes and sketch in my moleskine...

(living in an alternate universe)

hopefully one day all these ideas will be put to good use

MEET ME AT THE 'ALTER' THIS ISNT UP FOR DISCUSSION

(photos:Fashion Copious)

Vogue China #5 January February 2011
Shot by: Anthony Maule
Model: Martha Streck

I don't know why I've been feeling this way lately like I have an alter ego I've been really inspired by alot music like Natalia Kill's music video for ''Mirrors', Rihannas song 'Skin'. I've been inspired by my life changes in my job and the people I've met over the last couple of months being my co-workers and the mental and physical growth I've overcome...I guess you can say I've become a little bit more 'Ballsy'.... hahaha meaning that I don't let people talk to me any sort of way and where I work you need to have a 'voice' because people will try to test you! (hahaha what am I?? a CIA agent? lol no I'm just a Barista at Starbucks and people sometimes get crazy/ignorant about their coffee).

Also last weekend I seen the movie Black Swan and was just amazed by the movie overall how far someone's mind can take them...its INSANE! Because things like that happen in real life...maybe a little less dramatic from the movie but it happens!

At the end of the day and the beginning of every morning I know in my heart that I'm finally transforming into the person that I want to become

"WHATS STOPPING YOU 

FROM BEING AMAZING 

JUST LIKE THEM?..."

FEELING A BIT...

Kanye West ft Bon Iver - 'Lost In The World'

PICSPIRATION + THOUGHTS

My mind through visuals....







Thoughts:
I'm so ready for the new year to begin...I promised myself to never make a new years resolution ever again because I never keep them...but by me even saying that...doesn't that make that a resolution?? hmm...anyways I'm ready to start my new blog ready or not its going to be thrown together I'm semi ready...I'm tired of telling myself that I have to be physically fit to put myself out there onto my blog when so many other bloggers don't care about their appearance (size wise) and the still look amazing!! (ex: fashion haley and Gabby from YFF) all I need to do now is get a camera....

I don't even know if people still look at/ read this blog anymore? you guys are probably tired of my shit anyways! ha! its fine I'm tired of it too! But its time to crank out all of these amazing ideas I have in my head and that I want to share with the world!
I'm looking forward to starting the new blog mid January or mid February...I'm not sure! But I will let you guys know through here when I do start! :)

I MADE MY BED I'LL DIE IN IT

I know I post this video alot but this is how I feel today....

BLACK CRYSTAL + POSITIVE PEOPLE

(photo: fashion copious)
I love Crystal Renn in these photographs! Although one of these photos is questionable (yeah... the one where shes posing weird... and not the "fashionable weird")

But anyways I finally got a weekend off!! And I'm so excited I've never had a weekend off since I first started my new job! So Friday night when I got off I just ended up renting some movies I never not around to seeing while they were in theatres like Scott Pilgrim vs The World, Get Him To The Greek, Going The Distance, Inception, and Eat Pray Love. Today my friend and I visited the garment district because I'm taking out the time to make an NYE (New Years Eve) outfit!... nothing too extravagant but its my style very simple I'll most likely post pictures on here soon! (Its a sheer black shirt and a bandage skirt!) lol

Also a side note I just love my friends because sometimes I get so caught up in being alone and trying to stay to myself that I forget the feeling of having a great friend and I'm so happy that I do have at least a couple I just feel so grateful for them